Can't STOP.

This weekend has been one of the nicest ones I can remember in a while.

I have gotten sooo much stuff done. After weeks of bitching about our spare room being basically full of crap, I cracked the whip yesterday and attacked that room, which is now completely clear and clean. The stuff that was in there, has been thrown away or stored. We found boxes in there that were still in there from when we moved in 18 months ago.

I also ended up cleaning most of the house, washing dishes, clothes, hoovering, sweeping, mopping, polishing... cleaned the chickens out, cleaned the window-sills. It's ridiculous... I work really hard during the week and don't get a huge amount of time. I get up at 6.30am, leave the house at 7.45am, get to work for about 8.45am, then I leave usually at about 5pm, hit all the traffic in the world, get home for about 6-6.30pm and then by the time I've showered and eaten it can be as late as 8pm. By which time I usually feel exhausted and not very much like doing anything. Then you have to factor in the fact that I go kickboxing two-three times a week, and usually try to hit the pool at least once a week. So once daily life is done, I always feel like I have NO free time. My point being, during the week I'm usually out of the house for about 11 hours a day, I also have insomnia - so I usually feel tired - by the end of the week, you'd think I'd feel that the best thing to do would be to relax and NOT DO ANYTHING at the weekend.

Oh no. I might sleep in for a while, but I find it incredibly difficult to stop and not do anything. I have multiple to-do lists. I can't switch off. I routinely think about work out of work time, I usually end up emailing myself with reminders to do certain things.

When I do have free time, I always feel like I have to be doing something. It's almost like I feel guilty for NOT doing anything. It's why, when I'm not away at weekends seeing friends or family, I'm constantly busy with various things that I need to do around the house. And annoyingly, a messy house really stresses me out... I can't relax if the place is untidy or needs cleaning. And, since we moved, the house is much bigger, which of course presents its own set of challenges. It's a nightmare to keep on top of everything.

I need a holiday. And a maid.